A few years ago I had a beautiful Rudraksha Mala. I never wore it as a fashion item and only used it during mantra reciting. Well, there was a time when I strayed from my faith and I decided to start wearing it as a fashion item and within 15 minutes of me wearing it, I bent down to pick something up off of the floor and as I raised up the mala got caught on the arm of my computer chair, snapped and the beads went flying all over the room. When that happened, it literally felt like my heart was in every one of those beads and as they shattered everywhere, so did my heart. I just stood there for a minute, watching the beads roll around on the floor and I just sat down and started to cry.