Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. I am going over to my aunts house with my cousin and my mom. I think Soda will be going as well. He said he wanted to..but when it comes right down to that stuff he gets nervous and understandably so. Im going to be nervous, for what reason, I dont know. It just seems like I cant do anything without getting nervous and anxious about it lately. I absolutely hate it. It seems to coincide with the onset of my period. Which, to me, signifies that it may be a hormonal problem…I dont know, I just want it to go away. I want to be normal and able to go out and take part in everything that everyone else does without feeling like im going to go into cardiac arrest. Its a scary feeling, very scary. There arent enough words in the English Lexicon that would describe how much I want my anxiety to go away.
Oh yeah…
One of my headlights is out in my car..so..basically…we have to drive around everywhere with the brights on. Luckily today its raining outside so thats a perfect excuse for the lights to be on. But, when I get paid im gonna have to get my oil changed and get a new bulb or new fuse or whatevers going on with that light. We have to work tonight and..im scared to see how bad traffics gonna be hahaha.
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