I have this weird feeling I am going to lose my job soon. That could be me being completely over paranoid, like always, but, something is telling me otherwise. It really makes me think about my life and the way I spend my money.

I get paid, blow it all, and then im broke again until I get paid and it just SUCKS. Its not like I dont make any money, I live decently. Pretty average..but my priorities arent in line because I still dont know the meaning of really valuing something. However, I think its good I am finally starting to realize this, hopefully in time to correct it.

I need to get right and start saving a little cash. Find some extra jobs on the side and just try and collect money to do something good in my life, like going to India, heh.

Maybe I need to try and do something to clear my karma. I dunno. Im getting so tired im delirious.

So, last night, I had a crazy dream.

I dreamt that I was in Canada (lol) and I was hanging out with this guy, we were riding the bus together. Turns out, the guy was dead and it was his ghost that was riding the bus, he was riding it back to his home that was burned down and him and his family were burned to death in. So he was kind of on an eternal bus ride, so to speak. Anyways, at a certain time of the night his ghost took the original form of a badly burned corpse. Then, out of nowhere, I was hanging out with my friend Sarah (who lives in Canada) and she gave me some kind of weird hallucinogen and when I ate it..I hallucinated the following:
I had a bright yellow crotch rocket motorcycle and I was riding it on rainbows in the skys as I was passing brightly colored images of Hindu Gods in various dancing positions.

Isnt that weird?